Understanding My Inner Conflict: What Part of Me Moves Forward and What Part Pulls Back?

Below is a structured clinical homework plan integrating:

  • Kurt Lewin’s Conflict Theory (Approach–Avoidance & Double Approach–Avoidance)

  • Gestalt “Parts of Self” work

  • Anger regulation

  • Dependency vs autonomy themes

  • Boundary formation

  • Nervous system awareness

Homework Plan: Anger, Dependency & Internal Conflict

Part 1: Lewin’s Conflict Model — Map the Internal Conflict

Psychoeducation (brief for client)

According to Kurt Lewin, psychological stress often results from internal conflicts such as:

  • Approach–Avoidance Conflict
    (I want something, but it also hurts me.)

  • Double Approach–Avoidance Conflict
    (Both options have positives and negatives.)

Exercise 1: Identify Your Conflict

Situation: Being home with parents/grandmother.

Fill this out in writing:

A. What do I WANT about being home?

  • To feel missed

  • To feel loved

  • To feel included

  • To feel supported

  • To feel like a daughter, not a burden

B. What HURTS about being home?

  • Lack of structure

  • Food insecurity/boundary violations

  • Emotional neglect

  • Feeling unwanted

  • Being blamed

  • Grandma’s provocations

Now answer:

  • Is this an Approach–Avoidance conflict?

  • Or Double Approach–Avoidance?

Example reflection:

“I want connection, but I experience rejection. I want independence, but I still need support.”

Part 2: Gestalt Work — Identify Your Parts

Gestalt therapy sees personality as composed of parts in tension.

Exercise 2: Name Your Parts

Identify at least 4 parts of yourself:

  1. The Angry Protector

    • Yells

    • Explodes

    • Fights back

    • Says “this is unfair”

  2. The Abandoned Child

    • Wants to feel missed

    • Feels unloved

    • Feels invisible

  3. The Responsible Adult

    • Buys groceries

    • Tries to problem-solve

    • Seeks fairness

  4. The Dependent Teen

    • Needs transportation

    • Needs structure

    • Feels trapped

Write:

  • What does each part want?

  • What is each part afraid of?

  • When does each part take control?

Part 3: Chair Dialogue (Gestalt Technique)

Using two chairs:

Chair 1: Angry Protector
Chair 2: Abandoned Child

Speak from each part.

Example prompts:

Angry Protector:

“If I don’t yell, nobody will respect me.”

Abandoned Child:

“I don’t want to fight. I just want to feel wanted.”

Then integrate:

“What would a Wise Adult part say to both?”

Part 4: Nervous System Awareness

When triggered:

Where do you feel it?

  • Chest?

  • Jaw?

  • Shoulders?

  • Stomach?

Rate intensity 0–10.

Then:

  • Leave the room

  • Do 90 seconds of slow breathing (inhale 4, exhale 6)

  • Delay response by 5 minutes

Goal: Interrupt reenactment pattern.

Part 5: Boundary Practice (Non-Engagement Strategy)

You are currently engaging in escalation cycles.

New rule:
When insult begins → exit without explanation

Script options:

  • “I’m not continuing this.”

  • “We can talk later.”

  • Leave.

No tone correction. No arguing facts. No defending.

Part 6: Autonomy Plan (Reduce Dependency Stress)

List 3 concrete steps toward autonomy:

  • Financial independence steps

  • Transportation plan

  • Living arrangement plan

  • Summer job savings goal

Write:

“When I am financially independent, what emotional shift do I imagine will happen?”

Part 7: Reframe the Narrative

Complete these sentences:

  1. My parents’ emotional limitations mean __________.

  2. My grandmother’s provocations likely serve __________.

  3. When I react explosively, I am protecting __________.

  4. When I don’t react, I feel __________.

Weekly Reflection Questions

  • When did I successfully not engage?

  • What triggered me most?

  • Which part of me was active?

  • Did I choose reaction or regulation?

  • Did I conserve or lose energy?

Core Clinical Goals

  • Increase emotional regulation window

  • Reduce reenactment of childhood dynamics

  • Separate “need for love” from “demand for reaction”

  • Build autonomy without aggression

  • Strengthen Wise Adult part

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